I’m Learning to Let Go.

I’m learning to let go.

To let go of control. To let go of being good enough or strong enough. To let go of trying to be understood. To let go of what I don’t understand. And trusting God with it all. Is He enough for me? I want Him to be. 

It’s hard to trust Him in certain areas. I want to throw it all to Him and just rest and relax knowing He won’t let anything happen to me. That He will protect me. That He will always shield me and help me and be with me. But it’s hard. I so want to. And I’m trying to. But it’s really hard.

When I feel I have to protect myself or understand and know what to expect so I can know how to adjust and be prepared and navigate accordingly. 

But what happens when you can’t see and it looks, feels, and sounds the opposite of what you thought? To have to choose to trust God when you don’t feel it yet.

Lord, you have been teaching me about the word trust. And to not lean on my own understanding. I’m being challenged in this area, but I hope and think you know that I am really trying to give you all that I can. 

Choosing to walk by faith even if the feeling hasn’t aligned yet. 

So I am slowly releasing this tight grip on things and letting go of trying to fix the areas of weakness and struggle and surrendering them to you. Allowing you to do the work in me as I abide in you. It’s not all up to me to be good enough, strong enough, perfect enough. I am fully loved even in my weakness. Even when I fall short. Even when I do nothing for you. 

Help me let go of the things I can’t control. Help me give you the burdens I’ve been carrying. Help me trust you with the unknown. And trust your heart, your character, your truth, regardless of what I may see, feel, or hear. 

I let go so you can carry the heavy weight I’ve been trying to carry – or rather, I felt I had to carry. I want to rest. I want to relax. I want to have full confidence in you. I choose to, so please help me walk that out because I need your help to do it. 

I let go, and let God.